Still Alive But I’m Barely Breathing || Eller

asher-klein:

The cab ride to Ellie’s was short. It was the time after it that was long. As he stood outside her building, Asher felt a sense of guilt, knowing how hard this must be for her. He knew how he’d felt when he lost his mother, how sudden it felt, how angry he was. He could only imagine how Ellie felt. This loss really was sudden; there was no warning, no reasoning behind it. Her father was there one day and gone the next. The thought of it caused a lump in his throat that hadn’t gone away for days. As he stood in the cool evening air, Asher pulled his coat tighter to his body, taking a deep breath before moving into the building. It only took a few minutes to make it to her door, but once he had, Asher stood back against the wall for a long moment, just thinking. Reaching into his coat pocket, he pulled out the little black box, the Tiffany’s logo sketched into the bottom. Opening it, he examined the glimmering piece of jewelry, one small diamond set into a silver band. He wasn’t sure what would happen now, with them, with anything. He would just have to play it by ear and do what was best for her. Snapping the box shut, Asher slipped it back into his pocket, taking a step to the door and knocking stiffly. Sighing, he took a step back, dropping his suitcase next to his feet and waiting for an answer.

Ellie was already packed. She started packing right after she got the phone call. She got the tickets recently and they were gonna leave today. She had make up on, but it wasn’t a lot. Just mascara and eyeliner. Once they got there they would be off to the Wake. It would start right when they had arrived. She put on black yoga pants and a black tank top since she didn’t feel like wearing a black dress on the plane for two hours and be uncomfortable. She decided to tell Asher to go to her house since they would be leaving soon. She zipped up her bags after making sure everything was in it. She sat down and put her head in her hands trying to gather herself together. She took a deep breath and heard the door knock. She looked up and got up walking to the door. She stood there for a good second placing her hand on the knob. She didn’t feel anything, everything just felt absorbed from her and it just…. it felt better than hurting. She opened the door and looked at him, “Come in.” She said opening the door wide enough for him to go inside. 

Now that I’ve got the tickets,

asher-klein:

All set. Whenever we need to leave, I’m here.

We’re leaving soon. Can you come over? 

(Source: theelliecramer)

Now that I’ve got the tickets,

asher-klein:

Need any help?

No- no. I’m fine. Thank you. Are you packed?

(Source: theelliecramer)

Now that I’ve got the tickets,

I just need to pack and sort out everything.

One Too Many Mistakes [Eller]

asher-klein:

Embarrassed, Asher pursed his lips, looking down at the bed for a long moment. Watching her, Asher smiled, trying not to look so curious. “No, you’re fine.” Thinking, he shrugged, leaning his head back against the bed and staring at the ceiling. “Just some meetings, deals I have to close.” he said. “Nothing too important, just engagements I shouldn’t break.” Asher explained, watching as Ellie laid down next to him. Pulling her to his chest, her sighed, closing his eyes as he felt his body begging for sleep. “We’ll try to find tickets tomorrow.” he said, kissing her forehead. He was about to say something else, but couldn’t seem to find the words, and before he knew it, he’d drifted off to sleep.

She nodded, “Okay.” She then sighed and wrapped her arms around his once she was against his chest. She nodded, “I’ll call them and let them know we’re coming first. So we can do the ticket searching tomorrow. Oh and I need to see if my passport is expired or not. Yeah I’m a mess.” She said with a small laugh. She looked up to see that he was already sleeping. She smiled and drifted off to sleep eventually. 

(Source: theelliecramer)

One Too Many Mistakes [Eller]

asher-klein:

Looking down at her, Asher looked startled, shaking his head immediately. “No, no, why would you think that?” he asked, trying to smile normally. Making a face at her words, he laid his head back on the bed, frowning. “Yeah, like that makes me feel any better.” Feeling her kiss, he smiled slightly, although her lack of explanation still bothered him. Looking over at her, he raised an eyebrow. “Hey, it’s fine, alright? I’m not trying to badger you, just curious.” he shrugged, propping himself up on his elbows. Narrowing his eyes, he fought himself not to ask anymore questions. Clearly, there was something that was upsetting her, but if she didn’t want to talk about it, what could he do? Thinking, he pursed his lips, rearranging his schedule in his head. “Um.. anytime after this Tuesday. So.. whenever you want to go.”

“Because you look like you just ate bad meat.” She said smiling slightly. She sighed and nodded, “Yeah, yeah, sorry. I didn’t mean to just jump at you.” She pressed her lips together. She nodded, “Okay. Tuesday….. what’s going on before Tuesday?” She asked him curiously. She felt like she didn’t have a right to ask him since she was being very vague with him. She wouldn’t be shocked if he didn’t tell her, after all, she would be a hypocrite if she complained about. She sighed and lied down yawning as she began to get tired.

(Source: theelliecramer)

One Too Many Mistakes [Eller]

asher-klein:

Laughing nervously, Asher rubbed the back of his neck, trying to look casual. Nodding, he agreed with Ellie, deciding that would probably be a better idea. Catching her expression, he shot her a look, chuckling slightly. “Yeah, I can imagine how torn up you’d be if he did try something.” he said sarcastically, rolling his eyes. He decided to play it off, not wanting her to know how much the subject truly put him on edge. Waiting as Ellie began to speak, he couldn’t help but detect something in her voice, like the subject put her on edge. Listening, he narrowed his eyes, waiting for her to go on. “Right.. so, that’s it. That’s all you’re gonna give me?” he asked, knowing she was withholding something. Ellie always seemed to be a mystery to him, but this time seemed more, like she was doing it on purpose.

She smiled at him, “Did I make you nervous?” She asked him raising her eyebrow. “Relax, he can’t do anything to you. Mainly because it’s a sin.” She nodded, “He’s a preacher.” She shrugged, “Yeah I’d be so torn. Oh no.” She laughed. “I’m kidding.” She smiled and kissed the tip of his nose. She shrugged and looked at him, “Yeah that’s it.” She said and ran her fingers through her hair un-knotting it. “Is there a problem with that? I mean I gave you the basics of him and his where-abouts.” She spoke defensively, almost as if she were offended. She felt her heart do some weird stuff as she let out a deep breath. “I just… I haven’t spoken to him in a while, so I wouldn’t know and I don’t really care either.” She nodded. “But anyways, when are you free to go down to Florida?” She asked him changing the subject. 

(Source: theelliecramer)

One Too Many Mistakes [Eller]

asher-klein:

Kissing her softly, Asher felt her lips smile into his. After a moment, she pulled away, and he watched her with careful eyes, waiting for her to speak. Nodding at her words, Asher took a deep breath. “They’d probably be interested.” He knew he’d have to meet her parents, in fact, he probably should have done it before all of this, but better late then never. Still, he couldn’t help but feel that bit of blood loss, just thinking about it. He’d never met a girl’s parents before, mainly because he’d never really been the kind of guy girls would bring home to their parents. But things were different now, at least, he was trying to be different, and this came with the territory. “Well, I’ve definitely heard a lot of war stories about meeting the parents. He’s not gonna pull a gun on me though.. right?” he asked, raising his eyebrows. Listening to her, Asher pursed his lips. “Hm.. I don’t think you’ve talked about him before.” he commented.

She smiled, “Probably. Not so sure though.” She said with a slight laugh. She pressed her lips together and shrugged, “Well, that’s why we’re not gonna tell him at my house. We’ll take him out to eat or something.” She warned as she wiggled her eyebrows and laughed. She looked at him and shrugged as she felt a lump grow in her throat as her nerves built up, “Oh, really?” She asked smiling nervously. “Well, I guess I just didn’t think it was something to mention. I mean… yeah.” She said and nodded clearing her throat, “No big deal. But I guess I mentioned him now, so you’re aware of who’s living there and stuff.” She nodded, “But he’s never around when I’m home. He finds somewhere else to go.” She stopped talking noticing she was going way deep into the story then she wanted to. The less, the better. 

(Source: theelliecramer)

One Too Many Mistakes [Eller]

asher-klein:

Raising an eyebrow, Asher waited silently for an explanation. He couldn’t help but let out a breath when she finally answered, a small smile on his lips. He felt ridiculous, he’d never planned to do this, it was just happening. But when he really thought about it, who could ever be better? He’d never really imagined himself as the type to settle down, become some stereotype, but this would be different. Besides, he’d tried being away from her, and based on how that turned out, he’d decided a long time ago that he never wanted to do it again. Pursing his lips, he pretended to think for a moment, mulling over her question. Grinning slightly, he made a face. “No, I think I got it.” he said, leaning down to kiss her, softly at first, then with more passion.

She smiled at him, “Mmkay, good.” She kissed him back a small smile spread across her lips as she felt the kiss get more intense. She wrapped her arms around his neck and then pulled away. She looked up and him and bit her lip, “I should probably tell my parents about this.” She said with a slight laugh, “Don’t really know how my dad will react. But I think my mom won’t be too upset about it.” She shrugged. “I’m pretty sure Ryan’s home too.” She nodded. She then looked up at him, “Ryan is this guy that lives with my parents because his parents left him. Kind of like an adopted brother.” She nodded. 

(Source: theelliecramer)

I can’t believe it…

christopher-dawson:

Well, I’m always here if you want to talk. Well I’m not there physically but you get what I mean. Yeah, and we’ve known each other since we were seven. 

Yeah I get it. Thank you, but for now, I’ve talked enough and it doesn’t seem to make a difference. Also, that’s extremely adorable. I’m glad that you guys are eloping. It’s like you’re soul mates. Well, you are soul mates.